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Gender: Female Age: 27 Race: Elezen (Duskwight) Main Job: Dark Knight Server: Aether (Sargatanas) A woman from Limsa Lominsa whose frequent silence belies a sharp mind and a sharper tongue. The weight of her failures and anger-driven mistakes sits heavy on her shoulders, but ever she carries on. For those she has lost, and for those she can yet save. Current thru 6.1 |
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Personality
Date: 2022-07-15 02:35 am (UTC)Personality
Aelienor is a bold, outgoing, and relentlessly curious young woman, with a seemingly unbreakable determination. Raised around barely retired pirates and other sailors of questionable repute, she has a very rough and tumble attitude that belies her scholarly nature but serves her well in her search for the truth. Dauntless, she seems to fear very little, and dives into monster infested ruins with the same eager abandon she does a well-stocked library. Though often quiet, when she does speak, it's often with a playfulness or wit that proves her silence isn't a result of shyness, and she will eagerly engage in acts of harmless mischief when granted an opportunity.
Though not false, and not quite a front, this is very much the side of her she wants people to see. Under the surface, though she is as confident in her physical prowess as she acts, she is markedly more insecure about how people view her. Though she has a heavy port accent, she fears the working class pronunciations will make people assume she's stupid or uneducated, and does her best to clamp down on it outside of trusted company or the company of those she's too angry with to care about their opinion. As a result, she often takes her time before speaking and seems more withdrawn than she really is.
People's expectations also weigh heavily on her. As the Warrior of Light, she constantly deals with people holding an idealized image of her in their minds. Loathe to disappoint them, she puts on a brave face whenever she's in public, while at the same time distancing herself from her admirers. If someone is relying on their image of her as an emotional pillar and a beacon of hope, she reasons, then she can't allow them to see her faltering or vulnerable. And if she can't allow herself to falter or be vulnerable in front of someone, then she can certainly never call them a friend. Lately, however, she has begun to lose her patience with those who try to take advantage of her, and responds with snark or sarcasm when someone is being unreasonable…or simply when she's especially stressed, and would rather come across as rude than admit she's not okay. On multiple occasions, the combination of frustration with a situation and not feeling free to voice her pain has led to impulsive and downright reckless behavior.
On the subject of being taken advantage of, she is helpful almost to a fault. Her adventuring career started with a desire to make a difference in people's lives through her scholarly pursuits, and continues with a tendency to try to make a difference through more direct means. Further, she's taken that natural inclination to an extreme as a coping mechanism, both carrying the aspirations of the dead with her as a means of honoring their memories and actively seeking out those in need of help to distract herself from the pain of everything she's suffered through. While she has resolved to work on pacing herself better, this is a recent change, and she's likely to find herself falling back into old habits fairly easily.
All of this does not mean she is without a dark side, as her Dark Knight capabilities would attest. Beyond simply enjoying the thrill of an all-out brawl, she has an angry, vindictive, and even bloodthirsty streak to her that has claimed numerous lives in blind pursuit of revenge. Forgiveness does not come naturally for her, but rather as a result of deliberately trying to think about her enemy's perspective, and considering whether or not their actions were really unreasonable. With the Echo granting her insight into many people's pasts, the answer is often no, but she is truly vicious on the rare occasion when she finds someone worthy of hate, and frequently finds herself regretting a kneejerk reaction of spite or hostility toward enemies she has yet to get to know.